Majlis Malam Amal 2012

          I had such an amazing friday night yesterday ! Might also be one of the best :) Yes , at first I didn't really like the idea of it but when I went there , it all changed . Okay , so I'll start from the beggining ya ?   Anis Syamimi was suppose to wait outside Wisma LJT at Taman Melawati at 6.30 , but I couldn't find her so me and My mom just went to the 6th floor . Then we finally found the room , and ate fried rice so that we won't be hungry , then when I was done I went into the changing room .

          There I met Atieqah and Nadia , then the rest went for their prayers and came later , but they were dressed up already . SO , I'm the last one to dress . Then I changed into a Sabahan COstume that looks really pretty with the golden belt and necklace . Then ,  the stylist which is Nenek Murni , but I like calling her Auntie though . Then she tied my hair into a bun and put a few flowers on my head using pins , a lot of pins since My hair is thick . Then she put on makeup and Then I saw the choir groups from 6 wawasan , mixed with another class too . Then They all said I look so pretty , hahaha that's so sweet of them . 

            Then , the 7 of us ushers went out of the changing room . By the way , the 7 of us are Luqman Mizani , Nik Aqil , Atieqah , Nadia , Farisyia Uzaira , Anis Syamimi and Me . But we continued standing at the entrance and welcoming people . It was fun and when the VIP arrived , we also ushered him to his seat then we sat down at our own . Then this famous Malaysian singer named Ana Raffali was the guest for that night , and she sang her song and the ushers went up on stage along with the standard 4 and 5 dance group to sing with her . Not to forget that even Cikgu Fathy and a random man that sang with her since she asked a volunteer . I didn't exactly sing but just clapped la , but Luqman was lip-singing though , LOL

             And of course before that we had of dinner and all . We also got a chance to take pictures with Ana Raffali , Puan Rohayah which is our ex-Headmistress and also other teacher like Cikgu Fuziah and Zarina . I also got Ana Raffali's autograph though I don't know why , since I just found out about her that day but her songs are so amazing , and her voice (: And yes , as ushers we got to take lots of pictures and I actually felt pretty myself . Like , never before I felt like this , HAHAHA. Thank you Auntie Murni , thanks a lot ! And the performances went on , and we got to stand beside the stage , near the stage la, to get a better view of it . 

             It was a great night ! I had a blast and Auntie Murni allowed us to wear the costumes back home but we had to return it on Monday though , thanks again ! And when we went to the changing room , the choir group were celebrating teacher Syimah's birthday , with a cute birthday cake . Then someone spread icing on my cheek . Lol , and then teacher Syimah fed me a piece of cake . Honeslty , she so young , really . Well i dunno la how old she is but she looks young and still single . HAHAHA , I'm don't wanna leave SKTM2 , honestly . I had such a blast here , I wish I could go back to last friday night . There's many other things that happened last night , but I'm too lazy to write about it , these are the important ones though . 

this is how Auntie Murni did my hair xo

at the changing/makeup room

my costume

Ana Raffali's autograph ! She's so sweet and yea , I sang with her on stage , along with a few other ppl . Well , I sang the echo part though . 

Today was really boring by the way , mostly because my best friend , Jacinta didn't come to school  and she's usually the one to entertain me with her jokes and all . But anyway , we were just in class and we played a few games like Blackjack/21 and Monopoly . Well  I was the banker in Monopoly , which I don't mind because I love being the banker . lol . Actually, tonight there's this dinner function organized my my school PIBG or something like that . And parents are also welcomed , but I know my mom wouldn't be free so I'm not going . 

At least that's what I thought too , because then Puan Haniza came to my class and well she was talking to my friend and suddenly she called me to be one of the ushers since the other girl couldn't make it or something like that -.- Well , I have to go there at 6.30 p.m. to change into the costume and wear makeups and all . I'm not used to makeups actually . Hm , but whatever la because I like to greet people although I feel nervous . hahaha

And today , some of the pengakap are having camping at someplace I do not know . But a few of my classmates are going too . Including Faheem and Aqil Helmi  . But the thing was , the both of them knew that this one boy has a crush on me , same school . And then when they were leaving , they said to me " bye (that boys name) And yea , I was shocked because I didn't know that they found out about that . But i can't tell his name though , private ;) haha , but whatever la I don't blame them . I do that to my other friends too , for fun . And I'm soo gonna miss these moments I guess . 

Why can't we all go to the same school , even better the same class . Alaa , most of them are going to sekolah berasrama and I'm going to SMKTM , well that's what My mom have planned . Anyway , the price to go to the Malam Amal is actually RM100 per head . But it's free for me though :) And also , it's a good ting that Atieqah and Anis Syamimi are also gonna be the girl ushers , well so far I know that they are included too . As for the boys I think Luqman, Nik Aqil and Mubin are included also . I think laa . Well , I love food so I'd be happy to go and have fun there 

     I skipped school today , because apparently someone from my class said on facebook that tomorrow they're gonna have sewing activities . But , I don't blame them , many others said that too . And well , today was suppose to be the boys' turn to play Futsal on the court . And the girls probably won't do anything in class so I decided not to come , bad mistake I guess . Because Anis said that the boys didn't play since it rained this morning and everyone stayed in class without any teacher so they just hung around .

And Anis said that Cammy , Sharafina and Aqil Helmi asked why I didn't come to school today . Awh , they're so caring . Lol , this is how it feels like to have amazing classmates . HAHAHA , anyway I hope tomorrow the girls will be playing handball , because I love playing handball . Specially since my class has a chance of winning . But then , tomorrow the boys might also play , since today it rained . *sigh* I just hope so , we get to play . Or , kalau main campur-campur pun boleh la .

I'm gonna miss all this amazing memories , which is why I blog about it . Anyway , Kauthar won't be coming until Friday . And no , I do not stalk her -.- Anis told me that . Hahaha , and I'm addicted to the LWWY song . I don't know if I have mentioned this or not , but whatever la . What keeps me happy in school ? Funny teachers , awesome friends and the activities in school . And now that UPSR has ended , it just becomes more fun ! 

                 I actually felt lazy to update today , but my friends are encouraging me . So , last Sunday Manchester United and Liverpool were playing against each other . And of course , I support MU , but Anis supports Lvierpool so we decided to have a bet . If liverpool wins , I have to give her 2 carrots . And if MU wins , she has to give me RM5 , seems fair right ? But guess what MU won :) HAHAHAHA 2-1 . And yes , she did give me the RM5 she owes me . I feel so mean .

                    She's honestly amazing . And she understands me too , In a way we also have things in common . Ok anyway , yesterday the boys were having their futsal match in the court , so the girls had to stay in class and do seni -.-  I swear , it was boring . I don't like seni , specially since it had to be a groupwork . So , today it was the girls' turn to play handball on the court . And tomorrow it's the boys' turn to play on the court again .I was thinking on not coming to school , but Cammy said kena tolak merit kalau tak datang . haiiih , malasnya aku .

So , my team which is Murni A , won all the games . 1st round , 5-0 because the other team are left only 2 players so they had to join other teams , so we win for free , without even playing . And the second round , it was 3-0 i think . the 3rd round was 3-1 . and the last one was 2-1 . And the total points is 20 , including teams Murni A,B, and C. wow , i am proud of us ! And, Kauthar is actually my team captain , Murni A . but today she didn't come , so I bet she proud of us ! 

So , yes I did have fun . But that is until that person ruined my mood . Sigh , I know she is good at playing handball , and she's better than me . But you don't have to underestimate me alright ? gosh , people these days . Anyway , I don't wanna think about that right now . I just wanna have a good time playing handball . And I think the games will go on until next month , which is AWESOME .

" Tonight let's get some , and live while we're young "

Dear 6 Murni ,

Dear classmates that I adore , well most of You might not be reading this , but I just want to say I LOVE YOU and I mean it okay ? Words can't describe my feelings towards you all . Doesn't matter la if you're a boy or girl , we interact as siblings , nothing more alright ? haha , and I still can't forget all those times when we used to make jokes during Bahasa Melayu time . Haha , and even Puan Wasn Suryani jokes with us too . But that was all before UPSR , when we were still calm . I miss that

And then when we cried together with Puan Hanisah . Man , that was actually amazing , and I would do it again because it meant something to me . It's sad to know that once I or You have failed , we all have failed too . That's just how it works . Ok , this is cheesy . Anyway , I just hope all of us would get 5 A 's , because I wouldn't want any of us crying . And remember the time when at least one of us have been scolded because of not finishing our homework or etc , Yea it was also fun , because it might not happen once we have matured our minds and took our duties seriously .

And how we joked with each other and saying that " orang ni suka orang ni " . Hahaha and that orang was actually suppose to be one girl and boy from our class , and we would tease them about having a crush on each other . And I still remember how Haykal used to ask each one of us whose Cammy's crush . And also , the other girls . But , no offense taken alright ? I know that was a joke , one that I will never forget .  

I just wish that you guys won't forget about me . Please ? at least , if you go to boarding school, which I can assure that 85% of you will be going anyway . pfft , smart asses . Anyway , if you have time on weekends , give me a call or chat on facebook  . A promise is a promise, right ? And , I'm gonna get your autographs , for memories . And i will flip into that book when I miss you . Anyway, good luck for bola baling this week . I am looking forward for our class to win ! 

Confessions

Hi , so this post is really about my feelings and confessions . I know , nobody's perfect but we still have to try our best to seem perfect to others . Lucky to those whose life are amazing , wonderful and no worries at all . The type of worries I'm talking about isn't exactly studies or anything , it's about life when people judge you , underestimate you , bring down the moods of others and etc .

Firstly, I'm a type of girl that hides her feelings . I can't do anything to change it , because If I express it out to others , it will just make things worse and also , I'm not a type of girl that gets mad or angry easily . I don't like to pick fights . So, the effect on that is ... I hide my feelings until one day it hurts badly and I tend to stay in my room, listening to musics , reading books and also, I cry. Go ahead and think I'm weak, but that's really how I feel . Most of you would think that it's nothing serious . But It actually is alright ?

And what makes my mood go down ? underestimation , when I regret ,a person brings down my mood , people judging me , people who try to stay away from me , and those who just make me hate them for life . Trust me , most people who care about me thinks that my life is amazing and nothing to worry about, but it's wrong . I'm just really good at hiding my feelings from people and I don't have the guts to tell them because of what will happen . I swear , this is serious and it's not like a 5 year old crying and getting sad because they didn't get an ice-cream or just got told off by their parents .

To the people who say hi to me and manage to bring a smile on my face , I really like you . And we should be best friends , but end of the day Your skin color is all that matters . Yea, it includes judging others . Sometimes , I just like to be alone and not having people feel sympathy about me . I just don't . My REAL friends are the ones that make me happy and joyful . They make me forget about the things in life . I would really want to list down their names , but I'm also confused . Or , it's better if I just say , I have trust issues in my friends , no wait best friends . 

I feel like , oh she's amazing and all , and we talk everytime so are we best friends ? I mean, people could come and go whenever they like . They mess with your feelings and that's exactly how I feel.    Because I think that they might not like me , and they're just friends with me because there's no other people to talk . But yea , There is around 4  or 5 true friends . And , I love you guys for that :)

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